fair warning, not spoiler free. name's sierra. 27. bi. ace. she/her. i basically just reblog all kinds of things. i tend to go on spamming sprees occasionally.
“One fell first the other fell harder” doesn’t quite work with Payneland, because I think they both fell first and neither fell hard. They meet at the worst point in their lives— Edwin has spent decades being tortured, he doesn’t remember the last time he knew someone who laughed or smiled at him, and Charles who is dying and has never had someone care for him while he is suffering— and they both fall in love at least 60% of the way that first night. They latch onto each other with desperation until it’s not Edwin and Charles but EdwinandCharles.
So of course they are in love. Neither of them realize it but they fall in love a little bit every day for 35 years. It’s small things (like tandem bicycles and teaching each other how to dance) and big things (solving dangerous cases and saving each other from their own pasts), but it happens slowly and gently.
Until Port Townsend, and suddenly Edwin realizes that he’s been in love this entire time. But he doesn’t fall in love then, thats the thing, he’s been in love for decades. And no one in their right mind can argue Charles doesn’t love Edwin just as much, but to me there isn’t gonna be some great big “Charles fell harder” moment because he fell a long time ago, and has continued to fall every time he gets that full face grin on Edwin when they’re alone, or when Edwin reads to him during the nights they both wish they could rest like living boys.
So, in conclusion; they both fell at relatively the same time (that is, over and over again, because every time it seems impossible to love him more he saves you with his magic books or he effortlessly proves he’ll knock Hell itself away with his cricket bat) and it wasn’t hard. It wasn’t sudden. It wasn’t quick. It was 35 years of being EdwinandCharles, and maybe the realization hits them both fiercely, but the love has always been there hasn’t it?
And also, I cannot believe you would risk your entire existence coming down to this operatic horror show for me. That is so fucking stupid, it’s unbelieveable.
Sorry. No version of this where I didn’t come get you.
Rules: answer the questions and tag 9 people you want to get to know better and/or catch up with!
Three ships: picking a few is always so hard. ummm merthur, davenzi, andddd muffy YEET
Last song: uhhh the last unicorn by kenny loggins because I can’t fall asleep anymore without listening to return to pooh corner shut up— but last song in the car yesterday was middle of the road by chaz cardigan
Last movie: Kid Detective! It was good, I really liked it
Currently watching: 911 cause I’m trying to distract myself from lonestar being on break, falcon and winter soldier, and rewatching a:tla with my mom (it’s her first time through, we just started s2)
Currently reading: rereading a book series I refuse to say cause I already exposed myself with the Kenny loggins thing. The books I haven’t read on my shelf cry out at me as I continue to ignore them—
Currently craving: a Disneyland churro because always in the mood for a disney churro
MERTHURWEEK2020 day 7: free choice ➛ i give you happy merthur to ease (a bit) the pain we all went through again on 24th december this year (as every year) 🤩
“You have to save yourselves right now. Go join Caleb’s club, please. It’s better than not existing at all. Please just go, poof out, do something! Do it for me, please.”
“We’re not going back there.”
“No music is worth making, Julie, if we’re not making it with you.”
People have really donated 91.4 million US dollars mere hours after RBG’s death to ActBlue which gives the majority of its money to democratic candidates and then to smaller dem organizations.
Black people are being murdered in the streets while our organizers panhandle for money to survive and in 24 hours dems in this country managed to raise 91.4 million dollars over night for old racist white bureaucrats because another old racist white bureaucrat died.
In any case, instead of donating to racist democrats, consider donating to our Black Covid Relief Fund. We’re buying insulin and paying rent and keeping people from starving.
Even outside of what I’m trying to do, imagine what Until Freedom could have accomplished with that kind of money?
